I Want ...

by Barbara
(Dos Palos, California USA)

I want to ignore the pain
But it suits me well
People will wonder what I gain
Just wait and you can tell
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I want to commit suicide
Please put me out of my misery
All I can do is hide
Why do people do this to me?
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I want to cut constantly
With a sharp blade
Against my skin smoothly
I felt my vision fade
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I want to stop
But its hard to let go
It makes me fell in the bottom not the top
It makes me feel very very low
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It feels like a drug
A strong addiction
Don't touch me! I don't want a hug!
Trust me ... it's not fiction